i really hope that u can see this post

oh no.
how did things become like that.
this is sort of a terrible feeling.
alright.
coming up: exams
urghs.



ok.
i really hope that elicia,
u can really see this post.
cause it is somehow dedicated to you..



alright chucky.
really.
i'm not kidding.
ME SY JUD andYIXIAN.
when we all read ur post.
we all cried.


my dear.
alright.
i'm really so glad to hear from u that
u really trust me.
and that i actually
helped u in times when u were down.
and i really "lightened ur burden"
but . in the end perhaps i broke ur trust.



maybe this will anger you.
but i really didn't thought this matter to be a secret.
and it actually concerns bout how u think of me and sy.
so i told her.
i really didn't expect this kind of things to happen.



all this while.
i really think that you are really understanding
about the fact that me and sy are christians.
though u do voice out ur opinions to me sometimes.
about "sha-lalala".
lol. ok.
and about we pray and things like that.
i really didn't know that this matters actually
meant so much to you.
and u actually long for those JESH-ture outings.



remember one day in class.
i actually like tell u sth like
" i feel that there's this barrier between us".
but i believe that time can really heal everything.
and i really waited for this day to come.
frankly speaking.
last time.
i was really quite not happy bout u.
wad u do can just piss me off.
and being a scopio.
i'm so competitive.
and i must like win you win you.
ya. sound quite ridiculous right.
but this is my problem.it's really not ur problem
nor its your fault.



and slowly i then begin to understand.
and i change my opinion of you.
and sometimes u noe tests or stuff like that.
u get higher marks than me.
i was like still asking myself.
eh. why i not sad arh.
and i'm really happy.
but.
at this time.
another problem pop out again.
and i really don't want this whole this thing to just
end like that.
because of our different religion.



i really want you to know that
after i told sy this matter.
when i was the referee.
i was already not angry bout this thing.
and though i may be a christian.
but i still do cherish this friendship
that we had.
it's so hard u noe.
to find someone that have the same interest as u.
(exclude the part that i don't like to play ball)
and.
ok.
my brain juice is used up.
i dunno wad to sae.
alright.
i just don't want this whole thing to end
and we are then left not talking to each other
anymore.
don't you want our JESH-ture vball?
and your jeff?